juijk

I keep coughing. 
My stomach hurts.
At least I can get out of eating food for today - hopefully tomorrow.
I'm starting a fast today anyways so this is great for me.
I found a weight mentor.
A close friend that thinks like I do - and just wants to look good. 
She understands.
I will go drink water water water!!
Gotta cleanse.
I guess Also I've been taking Acai vitamins along with my, B, B12, C, and Iron Supplements. 
I'll update throughout the day.
I need to clean this room, write to Justin, do some laundry, and do my homework.  

I don't even care anymore. Today is a day for binging. I'm doing it right at least - I mean.. So far I've had a push pop ice cream thing (70 cals) and snickers ice cream bar (180 cals) and I've had a bag of baked lays original (130 cals) ... Not terribly too many but I'm going to have two more bags of chips for lunch and who knows what for dinner. Alex makes me eat. It pisses me off.

 I don't care what everybody thinks... it's SPRING.  Sure it's cold but it's always cold in the beginning. It's raining today. Alex's house is so pretty even in the rain.  You can see the lake and it's like a big puddle of fog. And the trees make it look like the low part of the Poconos. It reminds me of when I was in Pennsylvania so much.  His family is so nice too - sure they fight a bit but it's not actual fights like it was with mom and gramma. It's nice.  Moving out was stressful and I do have tons of shit we moved. But to be honest most of it was clothes, plushees, blankets and pillows.  So not too much when you really think about it.  

I went to the preschool today to see Jacob but the BITCH wouldn't let me.  I'm so angry about that. HE'S MY BROTHER WHY CAN'T I SEE HIM??? This country is so fucked up with laws. No fucking joke. He wanted to see me - his face LIT THE FUCK UP when I came in there, and he started to come to me but that STUPID BITCH started saying some dumb line up rhyme and he was confused. He didn't know whether or not to line up or to come with me.  She went out though, and he came to me. He had snot all down his face and NOBODY was doing anything about it. Also under his nose was all red and it looked like it hurt so much. He's sick I can tell - he needs somebody to take care of him better and OBVIOUSLY the school isn't helping at all. I made him blow his nose (eew I know) and tried to get all of it off his face as gently as I could because it was so hard to look at. I know it's like that again since I'm not there. Anyways I was about to actually talk to him but she came back and said that STUPID rhyme again and she looked at him like ''you better get in this line right now and get away from her'' ... OMFG. I didn't get to say bye AGAIN. I'm so PISSED. It doesn't even make sense. I hate this place. I hate my mom.